Another way from Mia

(&& i quote.,,,yes, i no, this doesnt ryhme BUT..i needed to be heard through my words, and these are the only ones that came to my mind.)

Once again, I told a lie today.
But at least...im still here for another day.
Thank god, no one saw the pain.
I simple said, "o I am well.
dont worry, I just ate before I am came"

when I hear the words,
"o jenie..you look so good!"
For that instant I am some what happy,
but then I come home
when no one can hear me, I cry and purge alone.

The first day I felt beautiful,
was the day I said to myself, never again will I eat.
I do know, I changed my life forever,
I know I should do for myself better.
There are days I feel good for me,
but then...I come home all alone,
I throw up and let myself feel strong..I free!

I feel so alone, for with this E.D I am all on my own!
Ive got my good friend Sabrina, and to get over this,
we dont know how..
But we do know we`ll make it through somehow.

Im just trying to make it through another day,
but yet...I still wont and cant let myself,
find another way...