Lock the Door...

Walk into my room
Lock the door
Got to release the pain of today
This pain I cannot store

Double-check the lock
For a mistake would end in tears
This is my daily ritual
A thing Ive been doing for years

Take that knife out from its hiding place
And I sit it on my bed
I pick it up again
I cant take these thoughts in my head

They crush me from inside out
The pain is just so surreal
So when the razor soothes me
The pain I cannot feel

I am numb as I rip away at my skin
But the next day names get thrown at me
Would they still call me scissors?
If my pain was for all to see?

But until then I must face their tormenting ways
I must fight my battle alone
Continue painting a smile on each morning
Making sure my pain isnt shown

I cover up my arm
And under the bed I place the knife
I unlock my door and walk out of my room
Once again preparing to face my life

XoX thanx for reading