I want to disappear

My eyes hold no secrets,
my face shows no care,
my heart holds no boundaries,
my soul has only pain.

The prayers I pray for,
the wishes I make,
the hopes I have,
are all a mistake.

I hold to my inner light,
bundle it like a child,
swirl it around my finger,
taunting it with a mischeivious smile.

The inner strength I once had,
disintegrated in one times moment,
the sighs I give,
sulk to the lowest part of my heart.

I pound my fists against the walls,
to ease my tension mind,
the cries I give out,
the sorrowful mistake I\'ve made of opening my eyes.

Breathing in all the hurt,
exhaling whats left of my soul,
the blood running through my veins,
all meant to spill in do time.

This once smile I shared,
slowly fading from this world,
the comfort I once gave,
lost beyond all meaning.

I have lost everything,
everything that is me,
my words are meaningless,
as well as my feelings.

I just want to disappear...