Layers Of Pain

So many layers i have inside
within these tears, they all subside
disappearing behind my own shadows
hidden and then found by everlasting sorrows

memories of your love in my mind stink
i have so much to tell you on your face
something beyond than what you could think
but i prefer to vanish without a trace

tattoo on my skin to hide my scars
memories in my mind to rise the cause
one slip from this thin line of life
& i drown with inconspicuous will to survive

sometimes i realizes my heart is not that cold
but then i wonder why it was always ignored
i have a soul, which no one ever explored
so i embraced depression as my only friend to hold

there's a long way to go before i reach the end
and i'll keep walking even if forever i stay alone
i am not a weak man to follow any suicidal trend
but i have been too much hurt since you have gone

weird feelings passes me by so frequently now
sometimes i wish my heart had a bone
this life has just turned upside down somehow
since my heart became a rolling stone

all my life i tried to be unique in a crowd
and now i stand all alone blaming myself
whispers of a curse could be heard so loud
as long as i could hear those silent bells

ruptured from your love that now stink
i had so much to tell you on your face
realities beyond than what you could think
i wish to share in my end of days

never thought, illusions of darkness could be so true
as i never ever dreamed of being betrayed by you
so these layers of pain still remains inside me
and i keep digging till i reach the root & set pain free