Pain

Every day she looks in the mirror and she feels the pain
No matter what she does shes never good enough
Shes tired of dealing with all the strain
Its too much to put up with

She cries and waits for it all to subside
But it only gets harder
She runs because she cannot hide
The feeling that grows larger

Her past haunts her in so many ways
Things that shed like to forget
Shes always in a swirl a daze
Of memories with her yet

So she acts like any other girl
She smiles and she hides away her pain
She hopes to find a better world
She simply cant go through it again

Although she lies and says shes better
She'll never be quite the same
She's haunted with pain and hurt forever
There is no sun through the rain

But days will get longer and harder by far
Until she can't smile anymore
Her thoughts will grow darker and deeper
Until depression consumes her heart

But still she pretends like it's still all okay
Like nothing ever happened to her
She fills with the hatred she claims blew away
As she pretends she's filled with laughter

She grows and her pain only hurts more
Until it's a scar that can't heal
She feels like she never had before
She can no longer deal

Deal with the life that God gave her
The blessing she's lucky to have
Until she explodes from anger
At the man she once wished was her dad

And not only that is what's wrong
For everything sucks now a days
Her feelings are like a song
Drifting over empty graves

No one around can hear it
Although it is loud and clear
No reason for her to fear it
Although death seems to get nearer

But she keeps it all inside
It's nobody else's worry
As she rolls face down in the tide
Praying that god does hurry