Why Am I Here?

I lay awake at night
i cannot sleep at all
i try to close my eyes
but its like hitting a wall
and so i stare above
at the painted ceiling
wonder about everything
is it normal what I'm feeling?
does everyone wish
that they could die?
run away, escape this lie
so much stress,so much pain
a million thoughts
speed through my brain
am i normal?
why didn't i fit in?
questions unanswered
cant even begin
begin to understand
what my purpose is
here on this earth.

i want a new life
one free from stress
no more secrets
no more lies to confess
no more fake friends
who didn't care at all
who one day
will get what they deserve
and together they will fall
no more stoner parents
who love pot more then me
without them
i might actually be free
my ideal world
is a place without hate
a place filled with roses
where everyones mates
but until the time comes
for me to ascend towards the light
ill stay awake
through endless sleepless nights