No Way Out

I close my eyes
and try to block out
the angry sounds
my families about
my father will shout
my mother will cry
my brother swears
he wishes they'd die

And all the time
i think its my fault
all the time
i just wanna bolt
run out the door
never come back
i close my door
and start to pack

I feel as though I'm suffocating
trapped within these walls
desperate to be free
free of everything, free of it all
then reality
starts to sink in
ill never get away
trapped within this sin
but then i see
like a ray of light
another choice
another way out

I pick up the blade
look at it there
my conscience tempts me
to let it tear
tear through my skin
release all my pain
Ive got nothing to lose
and nothing to gain

And so i let it press
into my skin
the blood overflowing
from my veins within
as my vision goes blurry
and the world becomes faint

I fall to the floor
lifeless, without hate
one last time
i close my eyes
my pain is silent
like my muted cries

Tomorrow they will find me
with cuts that run deep
alone at last
in endless sleep