Contemplation

Different eyes, one circumstance.
Can't detect with just first glance.
Opinion differs, yet synced with crowd.
More attention not allowed.
Minimum pain, stature falters.
Attention caught, gossiped by others.
Regrets begin to accumulate.
Emotions merge to become hate.
Amplified sadness with countless songs.
Lyrics play; memories move along.
Choices given, decisions made.
Pressure of guilt will never fade.
Could hands of time gift me with chance?
Do heart's desire and save last dance.

My mind, my heart, both equally stubborn.
Flood me with grief until it burns.
My weakness is, I can't ever let go.
These feelings I hide can never be shown.
Desires forbidden to publicize.
Conscience puts water in my eyes.
The silent pain felt from raging heart.
Impossible now to voice my thoughts.

Sleepless nights lulled in contemplation.
Planning ways to gain redemption.
Thought truth untold, eyes never lie.
Always opposite from flow of life.
"Truth sets you free", easier said than done.
Give all my passion till I'm left with none.

Inferiority describes the base of me.
To her, much stronger it is, I feel.
My hate toward her is so discrete.
Yet without her, my life's incomplete.