Tried to die today

Tried to die today
God didnt answer my call
Found myself thinking of you again
That never goes good
Got that pain
Started in my stomach
Then took over my body
I couldn't breathe
Tried to die today
Wanted it to all go away
Prayed to my guardian angel
Said you know how I feel
Why do I bare so much pain
I begged and pleaded
Just take it away
I can no longer breathe
Tried to die today
Finally found the blade
Cut the ropes off me
I know cause they turned red
What a release
I can breathe again
But then came
That little voice inside my head
Tried to die today
His words wouldn't stop
Screaming and screaming
Please sir go away
The headache I cant take
Get out of my head
Stop the pounding
It feels like its going to explode
Tried to die today
Went and got the gun
Said what now little man
You better run
Tasted steel
Pulled the trigger
It finally stopped
I know cause my head no longer hurt
Tried to die today
Bullet in the head
Blood flowing from the arms
Crawled over to the window
It was still raining out
It caught me with a humor
So I just closed my eyes
And knew I would wake tomorrow