Things i need

Lately, i have not been good
My habits are forming, and my tears are flowing
Why can't i see, this is the old me

Why do i try and try
When i really wanna die
Why can't i see this is where i need to be

Things get hard, but that is no excuse
Why is it that no matter what i do
I always,and will forever fall apart

I take things out on the wrong people
I push them to self harm
Am i the one that should be on my own

I need lots of questions answered
I need someone who can see me
I don't need another person, who's make believe

When i get what i need, will that be it
When i see what is right, will i still put up a fight
If i had the guts..Would i really end my life tonight.