I want it all back

It's hard to know you have lost them all
When they'd pick you up when you would fall

Now things have changed and only memories remain
Well I guess that's not all because I am also stuck with the pain

I know I messed up and trust me its tarring me apart
Because now I have to live knowing that I'm out of your hearts

I want to tell you a lot of stuff just to show you that I'm true
But every time I try and speak my heart rips in two

I know you think I'm stupid for saying sorry for what happened before
Because without thinking it, it might happen once more

I can understand why you guys have so much frustration
I know that from this you had better expectations

But now it seams like you guys have better people by your side
Because before to you guys I was just a girl that lied

I'm not denying it though trust me, but you guys know we all do
I just thought it was more important if I was there for all you

But now that's not what matters its just the people who makes you all smile
Even if it's for a minute or just a simple little while

So I'm sorry if I did't make you smile enough
I thought it was better to be there and keep each other tough

Each day I try and smile I try so hard to be all right
I also try and pray that God will help me through the night

I am so very sorry for all the things I have done wrong
But if you don't take me back I guess that's how we belong

It's hard to go to school and have to just walk by
Because I realize your care ness is no longer mine

Maybe you are trying to forget me and all the good things we shared
Or maybe you all have already forgotten that you ever cared

I wish we could go back to those wonderful days
The days were we were happy in every single way