Feeling nothing but pain

I once was happy had everything to gain, Now I'm left feeling nothing but pain.

My Mum died two year ago, I could not help her, the depression she had did not show.

My boyfriend died ten months ago, Went to go meet a friend, I never knew his life would end.

My friend died one month ago, Leaving a house party, Someone had a knife, I didn't know.

I once was happy, had everything to gain, now I'm left with nothing but pain.

I feel so guilty I should have noticed my mums pain, It's all my fault,I am to blame.

I feel so guilty I should have went with my boyfriend, maybe then his life would not end.

I feel so guilty I should have noticed he had a knife maybe then My friend would still have his life.