My gift

by Nelle   Jul 8, 2006


So, I have this gift
Not so much a gift that people would want
Maybe some would want it
But, no not I for I am terrified

At first I thought it was cool, I could connect with the dead and that was that
Now, the more stuff I find out the more scared i become
I'm getting to where I just want it to be in my past
This is not the life that I want to endure

I hear the voices, i see the lights
I have the protection watching over me
But, I don't want to do this anymore this is all such a fright
Why, can't they just let me be

Supposedly, they follow me where ever I may go
They love my presence and I am who they adore
If I could tell them anything, it would be. please no
If I could, I would run and hide and lock the door

I guess I should be happy, I have a gift that used to be alright
But, now it's getting to where I'm not even me
I'm loosing my mind, I'm starting to lose this fight
Is this how I will forever be

Only professionals can help me now
But, in all reality there is nothing they can do
As, for these spirits they are whom I will bow
Maybe one day I will teach this to my kids, for this is all I ever knew

(ok this is kind of weird, and might not make sense...but it is true, i went to this lady she told me all the things and stuff i hear/see is b/c i can connect with the dead..and well yeah i thought it was cool at first but now I'm scared..i found out a lot can happen from it and yeah, don't think I'm insane..b/c this is really true, believe me it took me awhile to convince myself that i was sane! but yeah now i gotta talk to a psychologist about it, but i just wanted to write this and i will shut up now, b/c really you don't need to know all of this lol!! )

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  • 17 years ago

    by not a poet

    Yah i believe you completly...most people have this "gift" but everyone is afraid of it, or dosent want to find it. it is good though, not bad, i am a gnostic/Pegan so the whole basis is to really use what our "god" gave us, an internal instinct.
    loved this one alott!

  • 17 years ago

    by Arcane Blondie

    Hmmmm....thats creepy. That would scare me too. As for the poem!-very dark. I got the chills----great write 5/5

  • 17 years ago

    by Natalie

    Wow! That's pretty cool. Is this really true? Geez, I'd prob love it if it happened to me. Tehe. I thought you did a great job at expressing how you're feeling about all this. You really put your emotions out there for people to understand what it would feel like. Keep it up!! 5/5

    `Talee. xx.

  • 17 years ago

    by Kara !

    I'm confused about the structure. The first two stanzas are prose, the third gains some rhyme, I see some rhythm in the forth stanza, but final stanzas lose the flow again.

    "As, for these spirits they are whom I will bow"

    The comma after "As" shouldn't be there, and I think it should be "they are 'FOR' whom I will bow". It doesn't make sense otherwise.

    Besides that though, it was definately an original piece. I've never read anything like it. It does make a very good story. And I can see you are truely creeped out by this 'gift'.
    You certainly have potential to become a great poet. x

  • 17 years ago

    by Melissa S. Masucci

    Very interesting poem (and concept, you must have a very interesting life). Written very well, my biggest complaint would be lack of consistency in writing style. I like it though.

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