Who knows

I don't know what to do, or who I have become
My life has turned from happiness to sad
I know, in life things get hard and might turn out bad
But is it really horrible, to want to be done?

I don't like me, myself, or I
All, I want to do is die
I wish tonight I could just give up this fight
Only so I could fly up to the heaven's above.

I love my friends and family, don't get me wrong
Y'all are the only reason i have survived this long
The last thing i want to do is hurt you
But, please tell me what it is exactly that you want me to do

I can not be perfect, no one can be
I'm sorry I'm a disappointment and not one of the best
I try and try just for y'all to be happy
But, pretty soon I will turn out like all the rest

I just want this to be said
Whether I'm sad, or mad, happy or glad
I remember the love that I once had
And because of that, I will be grateful, for all the people that made me this way

( ok i don't really know what i was trying to say here, actually i don't even know if this makes sense..so if it doesn't I'm sorry, i just kind of said what was on my mind!! )