99 pounds is too much!

by Jenie   Jul 15, 2006


(im honestly not sure about this poem. not one of my best. just needed to write)

July 20th 2005
I was living a healthy life
I was tough and I had thrive
I was weighing 135 pounds
I had some extra baggage
in the legs, the hips, pretty much all around

October 15th 2005
I noticed I needed a change in my weight
I was starting to be unhappy with it
those girl in the magazines had me addicted to their trait
I was weighing 130 pounds
I still didnt like the meat on my boby
still felt I had too much all around

December 24th 2005
my jeans were too tight
my stomach was too large
when you picked me up,
I just didnt feel vert lite.
I ate my dinner and felt fat
made my way into the bathroom
experimented w/ purging.
And learned how to get rid of that!

February 9th 2006
people are getting worried
"why does she look so ill"
my hair was falling out
I was thin. Easy to break. I was thrill.
I was weighing at 116 pounds
I felt larger than ever
STILL too much wight all around

May 2nd 2006
I fit into non of my old cloths
I wasnt sure how much I weighed
I threw out the scale. So who knows.
Skin was pale. Under my eyes, dark shades.

July 14th 2006
my life is slowing dying
I have to go to a manic hospital
because to eat, its too hard for even trying.
I hate what I did to myself because of weight.
I am too thin. I am ugly. Myself I hate!
I am now weighing at a total of 99 pounds
why am I not happy?
I still feel too much weight is on my body all around.

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  • 17 years ago

    by SadKuteAngel

    Aww thats sad... i used to fisrt be anxeraic (sp?) hbut then i had to eat (ppl made me)..and so i became balimic...went to hospitals...and no wim still underweight, but i dont throw up as much....so im getting better :)

  • 17 years ago

    by BleedingAngel

    This is what it will all end up with, if you don't stop ED, I will end up like this too I know and I know how hard it is to stop....But hunni you are not so far in, like I am, you can still go back...People say I look like I weigh 90 pounds or less, but I weigh more and I am still not happy, nor even close...I know I am too thin, but WHY am I not saticfied?? WHY....I will never be happy with the way I look an I hate myself for letteing Ana and Mia in my life, I hate ED...Please don't be like me, stop while you can, so you don't have to end up in a hospital or things like that....Email me hunni, please...

    LYLAS forever - Sabrina

  • 17 years ago

    by rhiannon

    I kno wat it feels like to critizise ur self but then i learned all woman are beautiful

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