Which was her

I run away and hide
so no one sees that i cried
and go in the back
and do my suicide
I go on top of the building
the temptation is rising
people realizing
me jumping is surprising
Slicing
and dicing
at my wrist
cutting till i cant make a fist
trying to cut a vein
cause I'm going insane
I'm just trying to feel some pain
and get drenched in this rain
I'm gonna kill myself
no matter my health
i got nothing left
so on my last breath
ill admit that i love her
want her a mother
but i guess it cant happen
cause she just sits there laughing
having a good time
as i hit another rhyme
my words are useless I'm just a mime
i don't speak
i just repeat
what they do
trying to say i love you
and give you a clue
that the only one to make me talk, really was only you.

She just left me on the curb
feeling so absurd
feeling worthless, like another turd
that was just left and dropped..by another herd
I'm trying to say something, but its not a word
I was never free, ill never be that bird
to soar in the sky and be free like Ive heard

she had me where she wanted
and to my heart she just taunted
i walk in a lonely road
trying to break this code
and no longer be sad
thinking of the best i had
Which was her...