One Last Agony

Once upon a time I took a chance,
Hoping you would see me.
Hoping I would catch your glance.
And on that dreary winter's day,
I got down on my hardwood floor,
And I did pray.
I prayed that you would see me,
That you would see my true beauty,
And all that you wanted me to be.
My body began to shake,
My lips began to tremble,
And finally my heart began to break.

Now as I lay here in this bed,
and think back on that day,
I droop my head in dread.
How could I have been so foolish?
To worship another human being?
That is really quite apish.
I lay here thinking,"Why, oh why?"
Did I do this to myself?
And I begin to cry.

I cry for myself and all the things you put me through,
With your mischievous ways,
And how you never stayed true.
The tears flow down my face,
I think of your smile
And of your warm embrace.
But then I begin to frown,
You and your devilish charm,
You always thought you were in renown.

I begin to get out of my hospital bed,
Why can't you look at me?
I'm almost dead.
I kneel down on the cold, cold, floor.
I pray for you,
Because I just cannot take it anymore.

Thank you for this mental state,
That I now call my own,
You slowly led me to my true fate.
I let you know everything is not alright,
With one last cold stare at you,
I bid the world goodnight.