Baby, goodbye

(i no its long, but please read and comment/vote)

Im really scared
for what I am about to do
so all I can do is quote a prayer
as I dedicate it to you.

You`v been there from the start
you were my mat when I fell
you picked up my heart when it fell apart
when I had a secret, you were the one I trusted to tell.

please dont hate me when you open this door
you`ll be shocked with what you`ll find
just remember, the pain I couldnt handle anymore
so tonight, I finally drew the line.

I held that knife deep in my hands
as I remember the horrible days
and thought of my suicide plan
as into the vein, the knife made its way.

My eyes are starting to close
o no, I hear you coming up the stairs
I dont want my beating heart to still be exposed
I prayed for you to find me dead,
you seeing me dying wasnt my prayer.

O sweetheart I see you as you cry
I am to weak to speak
but hear you mumble something
as you think its your fault I wanted to die.

I wish I could say just a few last words
I try to yell out, but my throat is dry
sadly I only heard...
"why did you do this?
I love you...baby, goodbye"