This is the fairytale of me..

Once upon a time there was a girl.. she loved life she had dreams she was brave.. she always had a smile on her face..

why..

she had so much ideas, she had so much to offer the world and all in it.. she was but 8yr old when she had to be the mommy.. she was but 9yr old when she had to stop he parents from fighting..

why..

she wanted to play on the beach on the clouds above.. where all the angels played, it looked so fun.. but she was covered by her fears at night.. her fears that would last till one day..

why..

she never could understand why they fought and fought.. it only looked like silly things they would scream and cry about.. about stuff that had no meaning to anyone..

why..

mommy why don't you keep quite when daddy screams at you.. mommy why don't you just do what daddy wants.. mommy why arnt you the perfect mommy..

why..

fists, broken minds, teared curtains and children crying at the scene.. i was only but just a child..

why..

daddy i trusted you.. i thought you were the one i could trust, the one i could run to when i had trouble.. but then you ran away from yours..

why..

daddy i needed you, i needed you to Chase the fears away the fears that you actually created.. daddy you weren't the daddy i thought you were..

why..

but today I'm but 19yr old and I'm my own person.. I'm my own hero, I'm the person i turn to when i need comfort.. I'm the person that wont leave me behind..

why..

i don't blame daddy or mommy.. i blame myself for dreaming so big and thinking i have a perfect life.. for believing in people when they don't deserve it..

why..

I'm Strong, brave and with only half a smile.. only me decide when I'm happy i don't count on anyone to do that for me.. they just disappoint..

why daddy?

why..