My road of pain

Its just me alone in bed
Wondering why I am crying
Painful memories enter my mind
Flashbacks appearing in my head
One after one tears pour down my face
My pillow soaked with tears

This painful feeling hurts like hell
Tearing me apart inside out
Shiver feelings run down my spine like a highway, it never stops and it takes the pain to every part of my body in slow motion.

Days past with this suffering pain inside me
I don't know how much longer I can last
Before I do something that will end it all........S..U..I..C..I..D..E..

Its only me
No one will care
No one does when I live
So who will noticed when I'm dead
I am doing both of us a favor so don't cry
You made me this way

They will when you are dying
Your life will flash before your eyes
Well does it work even if you never had one in the first place?
Where is the bright light at the end of the tunnel?
Its all I ask of you god.....D.o M..e T...h....i.....s F......i.......n........a.........l F..........a...........v............o...............r............................................