First,Next,Now,Forever

Took my tiny little hands
and picked the soft sand off the ground
A smile spread across my face
Unware they\'d never stay around

Not able to supress my tears
Hateful words in all directions
wasted adolecent then
The time of my most mental infections

Tried to get along with you
only cause a flood of tears
angry screaming, back and forth
that lasted all these years

A sin I\'ll never soon forget
that haunted me in every way
cried from all the immence guilt
still haunts me each and everyday

Soon there came a painful time
to suck it up and say good-bye
Agreed it was a short-term thing
but I was the only one that\'d cry

I thought that bleeding just might help
in work in trying to get me through
a greiving process of living people
I never wanted no one new

And now I sit and question
\"What is there up ahead?\"
Will I be where Im at now?
or be completely dead?