6:53

I want the velvet nights
and silver mornings
but I just have darkskies
and blue tears
bottled up inside
I know that you
will always be here
so why do I feel so alone
and at a loss?
the pain driving through me
makes me want to cry.
But I can't.
It won't come out.
I want to let it all go,
but I'm afraid to lose you.
No one to turn to.
So I run around on the same road.
Twists and turns never changing
as I go I see martyrs
shedding there beautiful blue tears
and I envy them.
Call it pride,
but I can't live with myself
when I cry
I can't show the weakness
I keep inside
that vulnerability
that stays locked
inside me
lashes out and it
wants to break free of the chains I keep
around its wrists.
I just want to
let it go
but i don't want to lose you
lose you
lose pain
lose it
lose love
let it go
not you
lose you
let it go
let you go
let it go
let life go
let the pain of death go
let me go.