I can really relate to this piece.
There is so much intense emotion here, i hope you are ok.
I searched for help as well at a point in my life because I just didn't wanted to be the person I once was anymore. A poem of mine called ''Fear Disorder and Other Rarities" is about that period. Read it if you want and maybe you can do something with it.
I loved reading this one :)
AHH DONT DISSAPEAR! i kno i dont kno u but that wud still break my heart! i love EVERYONE! sorry jus hAd to say that! well ya i looooooooved the poem, u did a great job on showing emotion. i loved it but be happy because ur alive!!! its a great gift if u make the best of things bro. ;)