I Disappear

by Fixxxer   Dec 2, 2006

So tired of trying, so tired of acting.
Inside I'm crying, but not reacting.
I can't expose me, I can't let them see.
Scared of what might be, if I do not flee.

Running away now, but I am still here.
I just dont know how to deal with this fear.
I'd ask for support, but they'll say I'm fine,
watch my world contort, and tell me to shine.

No one understands, no one ever will.
all that life demands, I cannot fulfill.
No matter what I do, No matter what I try.
Success is taboo and I don't know why.

Feeling dead inside, hating life today.
Wish I could have died before I felt this way.
Now I'm so confused, I don't know what to do.
Every option's used, I want to start anew.

To those who still care, those who think they know.
I know it isn't fair, but I simply have to go.
Pushing away pain and running from fear.
I tried to explain, now I disappear.


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  • 12 years ago

    by La Muse Angelique

    I can really relate to this piece.
    There is so much intense emotion here, i hope you are ok.
    I searched for help as well at a point in my life because I just didn't wanted to be the person I once was anymore. A poem of mine called ''Fear Disorder and Other Rarities" is about that period. Read it if you want and maybe you can do something with it.
    I loved reading this one :)


    xo angelique

  • 12 years ago

    by Emily

    I like this poem it's true to some ppl

  • 12 years ago

    by XxFallenxFromxGracexX

    I really like this poem i no exactly what it means nd ive felt like this so many times! good job
    luv fallen

  • 12 years ago

    by mohamed

    Your poem is really grt.i like it very much.ur feeling is clearly experinced in it.grt work buddy and never give up. try hard u will suceed wat everit is.


  • 12 years ago

    by heather

    AHH DONT DISSAPEAR! i kno i dont kno u but that wud still break my heart! i love EVERYONE! sorry jus hAd to say that! well ya i looooooooved the poem, u did a great job on showing emotion. i loved it but be happy because ur alive!!! its a great gift if u make the best of things bro. ;)