The Dark in Me

Everything happened so quickly

One moment they were fine, the next they were in pain

A trip to the doctor told me it was serious

The night they told me what was wrong

Sitting there on the couch

As I listened to what was said I never really heard

Not wanting the truth to be unveiled

Keeping a darkness in front of my eyes

But that was two years ago

And the dark is creeping farther than the eyes

It surrounds my soul now, keeping everything else out

All feeling to the outside

I try to feel for those who feel for me

I try to pretend nothing is wrong

But always it creeps back and whispers in my ear

Reminding me that it has control over me

I want to turn to God, and have tried so hard

But it tells me otherwise, or I will have to give all to him

So I listen to the dark, not allowing the light to come in

I sit in my bed and think, never allowing the tears to fall

However, the time is coming closer now

When I will have to say my farewell

To someone I have held dear to me for so long

The darkness still won't let me feel

I have no heart any longer; it's an empty hole

The dark has conquered over my soul

I don't know where to turn

Or even if I have a hold

A hold on my own life that seems so bleak

A hold on my emotions that I cannot keep

Where will I fall, to the ends of the Earth?

When will I call, when it's too late for words?

I have to keep pretending

Pretending that I will never fall

I have to keep moving, never letting go

Never letting them see the dark in my soul