Is this me?

Broken down
from the mirror
Looking at it
Rises fear

Is that really me?
I don't know
I don't feel that ugly
I've never felt so low

Hours spent
in the mirror
Side view,back view
One lonely tear

I wont cry
I'll hide it all
I never show
How I always fall

Every day
I close my eyes
Telling myself
tons of lies

It'll get better
its not life long
Though I know inside
That I am wrong

Jealousy
is my best friend
I know it well
when will this end?

Can't stand myself
for one more day
I tell myself
that I will pay

Pay for looking
not as I should
Pay for not looking
at all good

Suffer for
The way I see
Alone forever
Is this me?