I Simply Chose These Tears

Why can't you simply let me live?
Why must you torment me; torment i can't bare.
Why must you allow me to always forgive?
Why must you watch me die inside; why do you stare?

I don't understand what you want.
I can't comprehend your fatal intention.
I don't quite realize what you see.
Those eyes of yours that call my retention.

I miss the ignorant past.
When I slightly believed you cared.
I hate the way life slips so fast.
The thought of loss; I admit I'm scared.

I miss those lies I foolishly believed.
I wish I was a little more naive.
I wonder if i can pretend I was never deceived.
I wonder if I can bide; just hide everything I grieve.

I mourn the thought of further pain.
Just looking at you fills my soul with doubt.
They all say it's your fault; but I'm to blame.
For I chose this path; and now I want out.

I chose to cry these tears so teal.
I chose to soak my pillow every night.
I chose to look away from what was real.
And I chose to add on to every single fight.

My footsteps simply won't fade.
Each memory is burned within my sorrowful mind.
I know I tried; God I even prayed.
I simply can't forget; I can't leave it behind.

Why can't you simply let me live?
I know you wont care; no, not ever.
But it's OK; I suppose I forgive.
Forgive the fact that I'll love you forever.