Tears of love

There are things that live inside of me,
that make me hide my thoughts.
They darken my interior
with things that were once lost.

Things that you dont even know,
these things are hard to explain.
In short they never wanted me,
They remind me every day.

My life has been a vicious battle
full of sorrow, defeat and pain.
But then you came into my life,
i knew my life was bound to change.

So now I'm stuck with hiding this,
this feeling that burns so much.
I wish that I could tell you that
I'm missin you my love.

I really want to be with you ,
enjoy your sweet caress.
To hold you in my loving arms,
Be rid of all this loneliness.

Then gaze into those gleaming eyes,
They're sparkling green abyss.
And then I'll hold you, pull you close,
And taste your lips. My first true kiss.

But this, my one and only wish
i have to hide from you.
I'm just afraid that you might say
I'm not the one for you.

But hopefully you'll read this note
and maybe understand me.
I just hope that its not too late.
I hope your not mad at me.

And someday you may realize
that what I feel is real.
And that I'll love you so much more
than the rabbi's son ever will.

I love you.
And thats as real as it gets.

I'm bad at picking titles. if you have any ideas for this poem, please post them. thanks.

cesar