The Untold Story

Here i go
take a big breath
let the story be known
before my death

I wont let the secrets
be buried with me
they wont remain in my coffin
ill let the world see

When i was young
i had problems from the start
not a normal little girl
but at least i had a heart

Back then i still felt emotions
every day
unlike right now
there hidden away

I grew up around drugs
fighting and tears
it was normal for me
to suppress my fears

I sometimes went to school
and id wonder why
my family wasn't like my friend's
i was living a lie

A few years passed
and i got older
inside my heart
started to get colder

When i was about 12
all hope had gone
of ever getting my wish
of a normal happy home

I got used to the names
that they said
but i felt bitter
and wished i was dead

Deep inside
i think i knew
that i would never make it
id never get through

Childish hopes and dreams
erased so fast
pain is all i remember
when i think of my past

I cut myself
i didn't know why
id seen it on TV
it looked a peaceful way to die

As the blood ran red
and i winced at the pain
it kinda made me feel better
but everything was still the same

I thought maybe
that if i cut
people would notice
and get me outta this rut

But no one did
they just didn't care
so i got more depressed
i felt no one was there

Tears unnoticed
arms faded and bruised
every day
feeling so confused

Emotions a mess
scattered everywhere
every night
letting the blade tear

And still not one knew
and i tried to make them see
what was going on
but no one cared for me

The arguments still happen
every night
as I'm writing this
i can hear them fight

Yelling and screaming
at one another
then they turn
towards my brother

i know that
its my turn soon
i betta hurry up
finish confessing this doom

Consider this
my suicide note
i don't have time
to explain all i wrote

Maybe if i fail
at what I'm planning to do
ill let you know
all that i went through

But for now ill say this
goodbye to those i love
ill always be your angel
looking down from above