Heart of black

My heart is black, my world is grey
I wish someone would take the pain away.
I use lots of smiles to cover the hurt
Sometimes I even flirt.
But deep inside I am slowly dieing
All my nights are spent crying.
My friends and family cant tell my laugh and smile are fake
Or that I soon will break.
As I sit in my room thinking of my life
I realize that under my pillow is a knife.
I take it out and start to think
"I can end this all in just one blink."
The knife cuts deep
And I start to weep.
I see the blood on my bed
And realize that I will soon be dead.
The blade drops to the floor
As my parents come through the door.
The rush toward me
And start to plea
"Oh Lord, please dont take her."
My vision starts to blur
And I see their tears,
I just brought to life their deepest fears.
My heart was black, my world was grey
I was finally able to take the pain away.

-this is my first poem so i hope you all like it.