Suffering silently

Suffering siliently
in the depths of my mind
keeping shut
all the thoughts
not wanting anyone to find

hiding form the world
the words that are
left untold
keeping a loose hold
on this place
that i create
this hell
that i call my escape

not wanting
to escape this place
not wanting to be saved
wanting to be here
in my very own
resting stage

no tears
will ever cascade
down my face
not alone
or around many
it is never safe

will not look for help
or except any
more feelings
that i once felt
instead i will sit here
all alone
no grunts or moans
sit here all by
myself
slightly
making a sign
suffering silinetly
through the rest of time