Diary of mine 4 (Never been happy...)

Dearest diary of mine
what kind of world that i belong?
i never felt any happiness in my world...
even a single smile its only barrow
to all of my friends who try to make me smile always
i can pretend how happy i am
but deep inside i feel sorry to my self

dearest diary of mine
i can't forget what my latest boyfriend did
he try to get the very important for me
he try to cheat on me but he failed
i told him it was not my type of person
if he can't wait just find another one

I still remember my true love is
but i know he doesn't love me or even likes me
honestly my latest boyfriend
i don't have any feelings for him
i tried to loved him but can't
he can cheat me but i can't cheat myself

in my heart i know whose my really love
but everyone Say's be practical
what's the use of my love if he does not like me
chose the one who loves me
that's what i did, but i really can't

i tried to love and sacrifices
but i am to heartless to feel the same thing
maybe he loves me that's why he cheated me
cheated as he always making his decision by his own
and taking advantages as in we were couple but not
i hate it...

i choose to separate cos for me it's over
i enter in relationship to learn,
to love and to be love
but not to be involve in situation like these
that i will curse my self in the future

i told him i can forgive him
but i can't forget what he did to me
and i told him no one will take my dignity, my pride and my virginity away...