Where do i go?

If i die tomorrow
where would i go
would i care to say goodbye
to all the people i know?

if i died tomorrow
what would my friends say
would they feel sorrow
or just live like its another day

who would care
who would cry
who gives a S h i t
weather i live or die

i don't care anymore
i just don't see
the reason for life
or why it expels me

they say god is love
it just cant be
just look at all the hate
that he shows towards me

why am i alive
why am i here
we live to die
its just not clear

i don't understand
whats going on
im just a 14 year old kid
but i know what is wrong

i see the world different
from kids my age
but nobody understands me
it gets me filled with rage

i have nobody to talk to
im practically a ghost
so why am i alive
so why don't i just go?

Ricky