Leaving this life

I cant stand this anymore
the pain I'm feeling
day after day
my Fate is sealing
i will die alone and live life the same
it is a never ending, deadly game
and i am loosing
i just want to quit
don't know how much longer
i can handle it
the same routine
life's getting quite dull
nothing to live for
or be happy about at all
why would god make me
go through this hell
i hope heaven is better
if not I'm gonna bail
i cant take it any longer
I'm living a lie
the pains not making me any stronger
its killing me inside
i sit and cry
but you don't notice
but if you look into my eves
and really focus
you will see the dark
their's no light in my life
not one spark
only a bloody knife
i say goodbye
to the people i know
i don't leave with a sigh
i want go

Ricky