Trapped in my Head

My stomach hurts
Like I might throw up at any moment
My head spins
From dizziness that makes no sense
My hands are shaking
From cold or nerves, I can't quite tell
My neck is stiff
From sitting in the crouched position for so long
My hand is cramped from holding this pen
Waiting for words to come

Words that will save me
Free me from myself
There must be a way
To clear my mind
Without bringing out the blade

But writing never seems to help
Like they say it will
It only brings up more thoughts
That too get caught
Trapped
Just like me
Trapped in my head
And the only way out seems to be
A one way ride
Through the slit on my wrist.