A quick and painless death

I wish I could tell you the few thoughts
That keep replaying in my head
Cuz I really need to ask you
If you could let it go
And just pretend we never tried
And just pretend I never cried

I wanna talk to you
I wanna ask how youve been
But Im nothing to you
Nothing but dead

I could die tomorrow
You wouldnt notice
If I pulled the trigger
And screamed good riddance

I dont want you to love me
I just want you to hear me
I just need you to save me
Cuz Im still not fine
Being on my own
Im not sorry I even tried
Im sorry that now Im alone
And Im barely breathing today
I faded away more completly

Its only one second to my death
A quick and painless death
Im holding my breath
Its your choice
My finger on the trigger
Or you to make it better
You pick