My mistake to you

I never meant what i said to you.
it was all just a big mistake.
i thought i could live without you.
but that thought was prov en fake.
if i could just have 1 more chance with you.
i would take back what i said.
i shouldn't have said i hated you.
when you where secretly on your death bed.
i want you back in my life cause i love you.
i cant get you out of my mind.
every time i breath i think about you.
but your forgiveness i will never find.
i miss you already, i miss you so much i can see you.
when i heard you died, my life cam to a halt.
i cried knowing i could never apologies to you.
i feel like your death is my fault.
i can never again say i hate you.
when really your the one i love.
i will forever miss you.
i hope your happy in you new life above.
i know i hurt you.
so please talk to the gods, tell on me.
i hurt you so, so much even when i loved you.
get me sent to the depths of hell.

this is the poem that i made up for my Auntie Beck who i told i hate and three days later she died and now i live knowing i can never say sorry. she was my hero and i killed her heart as she was dying of cancer. but she never told me. it was a secret.