So Much To Offer

Seems I've been doing some thinking, of life's many ups and downs
Countless tears that I've shed, and so many wasted frowns
Many times I've criticized myself, hating the inner me
All those painful days alone, yearning to be free

Replaying everyone's cruel laughter, spiteful things said
Taken so many years, to erase those voices from my head
"You'll never amount to anything, you'll always be alone"
Salty tears would fall, while those woeful thoughts roamed

Continuously beaten, always pushed down to the ground
Yet I never fought back, never made a single sound
Never believed in myself, heart left bruised and broken
Left with a tattered soul, from the cruel words spoken

Believing I was no good, thought those words were truth
That's why melancholy and loneliness, took up most of my youth
Numbing out pain with drugs, self harm and drinking
Only now got my act together, had time to do some thinking

Overcome so much, know now I'm stronger than I show
While some may not think much, there's things they need to know
All their constant name calling, and spiteful cruel put downs
Have only made me more determined, to turn my life around

Taken so long, to be comfortable in my own skin
Countless years wasted, trying to deal with the hurt within
Now I'm learning I'm all that I need, finally standing tall
So continue trying to hurt me, but you'll no longer watch me fall

Going to show them I've got courage, so much determination
That I'm going to start living life, without any hesitation
I'm going to become everything I ever wanted, and more
Finally learning I've so much to offer, it's time to let it show.