Tears of Pain

Are these tears of joy or tears of pain
Coming from a boy whose life he cant sustain
He doesnt want to live he wants to die
Her he wont forgive for the tears he cried
Hes spent night after night thinking of you
He tries talking to you but what you do
You just turn around and walk away
You do this over and over day after day
Till you notice he stopped and wasnt there
You finally realized that you did truly care
You went to his house, his parents dont know
If I were him just where would I go
You go by the lake but hes not in sight
You cant find him anywhere, youre in fright
Youre starting to get scared and worry
You search faster and faster, start to hurry
You go back to the place where he said hello
And there u find him, you feel like jello
Hes not breathing, moving, hes still
You start to get cold, you get a chill
You look at his face and scream
For between his eyes is a solid beam
A 44 mag gone right through the center
A boys cold death in the middle of winter