Dear Ana

I recall the very first time we met
How you tried to get deep inside my head
But I shoved your poisoned voice away
Not listening to all that you said

For a long time, thought I was doing okay
Only now it's seems, made your way back
Whispering those poisoned words in my ear
Constantly reminding me of everything I lack

Hadn't let me eat in nearly three days
But today hunger pains got the better of me
Hours spent glaring into that dreaded mirror
Hating everything and anything that I could see

Broken tears streaming down this face
As you told me this situation was dire
Forcing me over the porcelain sink
As you casually introduced me to Mia

After Mia was finished I sat and cried
Trying to ignore your sneering voice
"Don't blame us, this is down to you
Had options but made the wrong choice"

"You're weak and deep down you know it
That's why you've come crawling back to me
So make a choice now, abide by my rules
And I'll make you someone beautiful to see."

As I sat there and pleaded with you
You started yelling not to be so weak
"Stop your whining and find some willpower
Be strong, wipe those tears from your cheeks."

"Don't you realize that I'm trying to help
I can make you become who you strive to be
So get up of that floor and finally be strong
You'll go so very far if you listen to me."

Slowly, the tears started drying up
Emotions closing of, mind body and soul
Finally starting to make a deal with you
"Make me beautiful and I'm under your control."