I'll Remember.

I think I've lost hope
In everything I try to do
It's hard for me to cope,
If only you knew.

The last couple of days,
Have been so sad
It's hard to find a way
To feel proud or glad.

I've done so much crying
My tears are gifts for you,
Inside I'm brutally dieing
My blood is drenched from you.

I'm drowning in your pain,
It's like a circle I go through,
Over and over again
There's just nothing I can do.

I feel helpess and unwanted
Haven't you had enough?
All the cursing and haunting
Because I'm not that tough.

I still miss you,
I question myself why,
Why should I bother
If your only gonna make me cry?

I know I should just let go
Everyone is telling me
To release the grip from your hand
It was never meant to be.

No matter how hard I try,
I end up with guilt and neglect
Hoping and wishing to die
There's so many things I regret.

You told me your feelings
Have returned for me
Right then I got excited
But it was another lie sent to me.

I'll still ponder why,
You hurt me so much
There's so many things you deny
You've completely lost your touch.

I know there's others in your life
I hope you remember me
But I'll just keep dreaming
Maybe this time, you'll see.

You have a special place
Locked inside my heart
You were always there
Right from the start.

It might be different today,
But I'll always keep in mind

Once,

You were mine.