I Would Love To Tell You

I would love to tell you
that I'm happy to be alive
I wish i could tell u this
but it would be a lie

I would love to tell you
that i am doing ok
that i don't harm myself anymore
but truth is i play with a blade

I would love to promise you
That I won't dissapear
I wish that I could tell you that
And take away your fear

I would love to tell you
That I am in no danger
But the only way i could tell you that
Is if you turned into a stranger

I would love to tell you
That I am safe and sound
That you can always come and find me
And it will never be a dead body found

I would love to tell you
I know longer feel so alone
That I finally fit in
That I finally have a home

I wish that I could tell you
That i no longer want a sharp knife
God i wish that I could tell you
That I don't want to take my life

I so totally wish
That the above statements were true
That i was amazingly well
But I can't lie to you