I received the call. . . . .

I'm back again where i started
I"m standing on the ledge
Looking out unto the great unknown
Dangling over the edge

The wind blowing in my hair
Desperation still at hand
It's hard to find the strength i need
But desperately i try to stand

The tears stain my dirty face
At this point, i don't care
Nothing in the world matters now
I'd jump if i truely dared.

My toes grasp the edge of the rock
The wind blows lonesomely again
My screams are drowned out by thunder
My anxiety starts to begin

It feels like every chance i get
I'm helplessly back in this position
Curious as to what's at the end
Of my desperate disposition

Yet i do not back away from this
I angrily meet it head on
Challenging everything i know
Against everything i've ever known

I challenge every thought i have
Every sinister thing i've schemed.
Remembering every foul thought thats entered
My once, so peaceful dreams.

I challenge every heart broken battle
That i have faced alone
I show the world my broken scars
Each one, my very own.

I challenge every secret rumor
Or gossip thats turned to lies
I challenge those to listen to
These poor innocent cries.

I challenge those that strive to make
Others suffer and bleed
Those that have their sickening habits
Those with disgusting needs.

I take a deep breath and i plunge
Out over this "worldly" edge
Reaching the end of my curious journey
Meeting my unwelcomed "death."

And in my life i stood for something
Yet fell for nothing at all
But in the end, the temptation screamed
And i received its call.

end.
by:amber