I love you now, but people change.
I understand this may sound strange
but I can't love you for tomorrow,
... only for today.
[I won't love you if you hit me,
or you throw me to the dirt.
I won't love you if you lie to me
or cause me to get hurt.]
You think of who you were
when you were ten, and then today
you are surprised by how you're different
in so many distinct ways.
So how should I expect you to remain the "you" I see
if in a decade you could be completely different, just like me.
I may not love you for forever,
for the truth hid from ourselves
is you can't love yourself tomorrow;
it's the same with someone else.
Perhaps I will be different
two or three years down the road,
or even all these chemicals
inside my brain, for you, will slow.
[I won't love me if I hit you
or I throw you to the dirt.
I won't love me if I lie to you
or cause you to get hurt.]
The truth is, I can't love myself for things I haven't done
and I can't hate myself for things unsaid or odes that are unsung.
I can't predict the future,
only learn from what is passed.
I promise I love you today
and only promise that.
Thanks to Em; even though she doesn't know quite how, her hardships inspired this piece! Proof that beauty can come from pain in the most unexpected, and poetic, ways! Hang in there, Em, we're all rooting for you!
There are aspects and parts of this poem that I really liked, and others I felt hindered. The repeated stanza with the simple variation I thought was absolutely wonderful. Certainly my favourite stanza. And I loved the philosophy of what was being stated.
I didn't quite get the need for having the two longer couplet stanzas. I felt they could've been placed into the format you'd already established, but I have little doubt that I've missed something. However, for me, it jarred with me a little, as did the last two stanzas, as they too were a break from what you'd already created.
I love this. So often people promise forever and all that jazz, but they forget that people change. Some for the better, some for the worst. It's hard to love someone who has changed completely from the person you fell in love with.
I'm glad that people are so receptive to this, something that I find many people surrounding me (proximity-wise) are completely ignorant to. I think it's something that as a kid I didn't realize, and now that I'm older I see relationships being destroyed not because there was never love, but because that love was never tended to in the right way or with the right mindset.
This is my first step into that realization, and I've been single and thinking about it for a while. It's nice to finally have words that help me conceptualize it. Unfortunately, this mindset leads to a very difficult job of being single. There are many people who I would love to be with now, but I don't know if I'd love to be with in the future ... I avoid them, because I foresee how it would end.
Anyway, at this point I think I rambled off into a tangent, which I feel is my forte. Thanks for reading and commenting :)
Stephen, this is such a lovely write! All we can ask for is the daily love and respect of our partner. Even as our relationship ages and passion wanes you still have a deeper connection with that person. But it requires work from both people, it can't be one sided, one always taking and one always giving. That creates too many problems and causes those splits. You really did a wonderful job of putting that into words. Well done- take care- Brenda