Hey, this resonates so much with me and I couldn't read this without commenting especially as I have written similar? things previously but when I try to write something it seems the word are lost in transmission and I come out with simple works such as 'please explain dad' or something along those lines.
1/ This really hit me in the gut because I know exactly how it feels to be like that dog anticipating the arrival of the person you look up to only to be met with anger or abuse in some way and I think the worse anyone can go through is being ignored.
2/ This is what I was talking about anticipating arrivals because we have stories to tell and want to hear about their day but what happens nothing, we're pushed to one side and seemingly forgotten about which is unfortunate as it happens so often to people all over the world.
3/ Just tragic. I feel your pain.
4/ Now you protect the vulnerable/innocent animal because I personally feel you yourself feel far from safe and happy and the words show this.
This hits very close to home for me, and makes me incredibly sad. Not only does the lack of communication and interest hurt, but that heart pounding fear of anticipation and dread when the garage door is opening...it can just about rip you to shreds. My heart goes out to you dear...I'm sorry this is something you have to deal with. It is truly a heartbreaking experience. Much love and peace to you, hon- and don't let his lack of interest or compassion ever make you feel like you don't matter. Cause you do! And even though he doesn't want to hear about the events going on in your life, they are still so very important, and there is somebody who does :) stay strong and keep your chin up!
Appreciate it so much, Ren! I think I'm now to the point where I keep a fair distance. I can joke around with him but I guard my heart with the important things, if that makes sense. There are far greater things and people who I should share my story with. Love and peace back.