Overcome by a sadness late in my life.
Recovery seems unlikely.
Tears rolling over age wrinkles like water over a dam.
Below there is no holding reservoir.
Just years of pain that can be neither turned back or forgotten.
Growing old doesn't hurt but realizing time for happiness has passed me by never to return is painful.
In the Kelly Clarkson song Stronger she wrote, "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger."
I believe those to be words of wisdom unfortunately I believe the sad things that don't kill us also make us older.
Yesterday I was a happy young man of eighteen and today I am an unhappy old man of fifty eight.
Sadness seems to have eaten away at my life like an incurable cancer, I'm just waiting on God to tell me how long I have left live.
Oh my what a sad tale. The good news your never too old for happiness. It's a state of mind. You can choose to find happiness in the smallest of things. Don't give in or give up. Things will get better if you believe in yourself. Milly x