The One To Blame

by A Broken Bleeding Soul   Mar 26, 2006

*This poem means a lot to me. This is how I feel because of my best friend's suicide. Please read all of it... it will be greatly appreciated*

You know that you should be the one to take the blame
You were selfish when she was screaming out your name
Now you sulk with sorrow as you remember her precious life
In the mean time, you sit there, cutting away with her knife

You knew she needed help when she showed you her cuts
She needed someone to understand without asking "why"s or "but"s
Instead you did the most selfish thing one can possibly do
You lifted up your sleeves and said "Hey, I cut too"

Best friends, together, would bleed every night
You loved to see each other bleed, but you knew it wasn't right
Almost two years later, you realize you're the one to blame
You should have helped her, but you kept everything the same

You indulged in your self-loathing, you were too blind to see
Every day you're best friend was dying, couldn't hear her plea
You never helped her, you just f u c k ed up her life
You were just something more that added to her strife

Now you stand above her grave, saying its your fault she's dead
Remembering that night you found her, covered crimson red
She told you she loved you, that you kept her alive
But now you start to wonder, why didn't she survive?

You can't help but feel guilty for the fact that she's gone
You never helped her stop her problem, instead you cheered her on
So just keep in mind that this was all because of you
And keep on cutting hoping you'll end up like her too

© Copyright 2006


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  • 10 years ago

    by TillyMariex

    Wow. omg your poems touch me. <333

  • 11 years ago

    by KeyxMashingxParody

    I was teary eyed.
    "Such sweet silence of Death to be,
    Of that spirit in sickness coming for me.
    Shall I end it all on my own?
    No, you helped me hold the knife...."
    I know how you feel, my uncle too took his life into his own hands, and now my cousin is fatherless. e-mail me if you need to talk. lot's of luv!

    ~muahs to all~

  • 11 years ago

    by Tricky Daze

    There are so many sadnesses on your life as it seems..and i'm so sorry about her death...don't ever give up living and hold on to life tightly...nonone know what tomorrow brings
    And please smile for me...just once *tickles her*

    Take care
    Have a nice day

  • 12 years ago

    by LadyPearl

    Excellent poem. Wonderful message too. Try to expand your rhyming words. ^-^. Keep it up

  • 12 years ago

    by Cassie

    Omg no its not ur fault .. u can just tell some one not to cut when ur doing it to .. but thats really sad .. agreat poem ..