Hold my teddy bear tight

I remember the first night
you came to tuck me into bed
i held my teddy bear tight
as you kissed my forehead

you said goodnight i love you
of course i said it back
you know there was trust too
in my room all pitch black

and then after a week
when you came to tuck me in
you said shh dont speak
remember i'm your friend

i then grew silent as you got close enough to see
my heart began to flutter but what for?
and then i felt your hands all over me
so i held my teddy bear tighter then ever before

and then every night when it got real late
you'd come back and down i would fall
so young yet i questioned was it love or hate
because i hadn't done anything wrong at all

so i questioned you and you told your lies
i actually believed it was out of your love!
night after night you'd look deep into my eyes
and i would silently pray to the lord up above

then one day i went numb
and couldn't feel the pain
i just felt so wrong, so dumb
was i going insane?

but then your lies played over and over in my head
and i believed you and never questioned again
every night i was filled with unexplainable dread
it confused me...you were my friend

seven years thius went on
and i didn't have a clue
my mom and dad were gone
all i had was you!!!

you took advantage of my trust
stole away my innocence
over your own desire or lust?
or simple incompetence?

now i have nightmares and flashbacks too
sometimes i cry myself to sleep at night
all of this is because fo you
and i still hold my teddy bear tight...