& if theres one thing I learned in my life, it's that no matter how hard you fake a smile, or how pretty others tell you you are, it never means a thing, because you remember that the smiles a fake & that you don't feel beautiful at all.
There's a girl in my mirror,
I wonder who she is.
Sometimes I think I know her,
Sometimes I wish I did.
There's a story in her eyes,
Filled with lies and sad goodbyes.
And when she looks back at me I can tell, she's hurting inside.
When dreams shatter
everything stops to matter
and you'll look for the answer
but only find your failure
then that's when you'll get down
and in depression you'll drown
I've been crying for years without tears.
My heart is in pain
You have me on a chain
Till I used my brain
Iam not going to cry any more
Iam not going to try any more
becuase you got turned on
and then you moved on
You abused me
You confused me
You used me
On monday you made me cry,
On tuesday I wondered why,
On wednesday you broke my heart,
On thursday I fell apart,
On friday you said you didnt care,
On saturday you said you'd had an affair,
On sunday I wasnt there....
I never asked to be alive so dont blame me for wanting to be dead
Writing doesn't even block out my bad thoughts
Now my heart sits numbly as my body rots
Death crosses my mind countless times
Because of my sadness my wrists are covered with lines
I'm going to smile, like nothings wrong, smile like everything is perfect, act like it's all a dream, and pretend that it's not killing me.
I was already broken when you found me... you put me back together... Just to break me apart a second time?
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