It hurts i just can't help it

You have changed a lot
I don't know when, why and how
All the fun that we used to have
There is nothing like that now

Days can pass by without talking to each other
Al though i tried to
We are roommates but
I don't know what happened to you

We used to have meals together
Two three times at least
But it seems now you are so busy
Enjoying yourself the feast

Every person change from time to another
So I kept quite not saying a word
I was hoping you will return normal soon
I thought soon you will return the old

While you were away
I was trying to write you a poem
To tell how we can be united
Even if we were to be hit by a storm

But that night everything has changed
When you were trying to act cool
You came to the room and we haven't talked for so long
You tried to joke but you were so mean and cruel

You kicked me out of the room
Telling me to go home
So I left all alone
Pretending nothing was wrong

I slept outside in my car that day
Trying to forget how mean you were
I kept doing this for more than a week
But the wound that you caused still there

I know you were joking yes I know
But it hurts I just can't help it
I know you didn't mean it yes I know
But its so damn hurt I just can't forget

No matter how much I write I can't explain how much pain you caused
You may see it as normal joke but it hurts

So tell me what should i do? how should i act?
It hurts, it hurts and every day it hurts even more!!!
It was normal for you but for me it was something nothing like before

I know this is may not look like a real poem but if i did not write it i would blow up. it still hurts...