Suicide attempt

I've tried to be strong, I really have
But I can't take this anymore, I've had enough
I just want this pain to end, to stop
But the only way out is death.

I look in the mirror, I hate what I see
It's me, my one and only enemy
I smash the mirror In the palm of my hands
As desperation overcomes me.

I choose the biggest, sharpest piece
Put it to my wrist and cut so quick and deep
But the stupid piece of glass isn't sharp enough.
And it does not kill me.

I will make sure it works next time, so I can end this pain
I'll plan the date, what I'll do and make sure nobody is around
Next time it will work, It will kill me
And this pain will end, it will stop.

(written 2007)